Its amazing the amount of love I hold for you!
And its even more crazy that you can hurt me in million more ways than that.
It’s true, the more you love, greater is your capacity to get hurt from the same person. I love you unconditionally, and I keep getting hurt in ways unimaginable.
But there’s silver lining to the cloud if you think of it that way, atleast there’ll be a day when the wound will finally become a canker sore, and then maybe, even if I get hurt, it won’t be painful anymore?
I dont know what I’ll do with all the love I hold for you.
You don’t let me to express my love, or shower it on you, I cant keep it to myself, all this is slowly, very slowly killing me, the me that I am.
My life is such, I guess. When I chose to love you, I didn’t know my own depths, to love, to get hurt, to tolerate, and to still be madly in love with you.
The constant pain is a slow poison working its way to kill me.
I guess it’s better, tho! Someday, once and for all, I’ll be done with love. I hope.
Sometimes, I want to push u away, so bad, just so you value me better, but then I just leave it to it. Can’t even see a scratch on you, I won’t be able to hurt you with that.
I don’t know how much more my heart can take, before giving up, totally. Let’s see how bad that bitch is!
And to think, you have zero idea of the hurt you cause. Must be some kind of a blessing.
I’ll always choose happiness for you, tho.
So, in a way. It’s good.
But if given, in a parallel world, I would love to be loved by you unconditionally.
-Aahilic Aish
Aahilic Aish 