True love, sometimes.

True love sometimes doesn’t look like walking hands in hands with each other.

True love sometimes doesn’t look like going on coffee dates together, hanging out together.

True love sometimes doesn’t look like reading romantic novels together or going on shopping spree together.

True love sometimes isn’t going to the beaches to watch sunsets together.

Sometimes,
True love is watching the one we love, rest their head on the shoulder of the person they love.

-Aahilic Aish

And you stand there, and smile.

Smile, knowing it’ll never be you.

Smile, knowing they are happy with somebody else.

Smile, knowing their happiness matters the most.

Smile, knowing they can never be yours, but you’ll always be theirs.

Always.

-Aahilic Aish

Facades……

I wish i could face the truths of life, but i still am not ready, i still live my life in lies, thinking everything is ok!
I kind of live a life of illusion, and these superficial illusions are my best friend!

Facades, i would rather say.
It’s a noun, meaning a superficial illusion, or something.

I feel like shit, i feel like giving up, i feel like crying.
Some times i feel this whole world is not made for me actually.

I have this feeling quite from my childhood, and hasn’t changed still.
I guess i got nobody to change my perspective towards life.

Not so great family, non supportive siblings, not so friendly cousins and ofcourse, no great friends to rely over.

Feels so shit, all that sadness makes me wonder,
How does it actually feel to be happy? Its been so long! I don’t even remember how it feels like!

Even in crowds you will see i am entangled in my own thoughts, but i fake about being happy.

I don’t know how it is to be happy, but i do know i have gone from being an amateur to being a professional in faking my emotions and feelings.

-Aahilic Aish.

Yeah! Facades are my best buddies!

Atleast temporarily, they let me forget all my sadness and come into play, so that i can fake things and pretend being happy.

All these, and many more things are making me phobic.
But i guess i can fake it too. Acting not being phobic, can be easy too.
Being habituated, comes as an advantage when it comes to faking things.

Just a bit of facade and you are done!
You can create a whole new world with things and people you like, the way imagined things to be, always.
Imaginary though.

But i guess everything has pros and cons.
So does Facade….

-Aahilic Aish…