Baba’s Princess

I miss you, today, and everyday.
I wish i could sleep in you arms, once again. Just lie by your side and forget all my worries, i wish you could give me that sweet head massage, that proud smile, letting me take all your money, as i look at you laughing out. I wish i could have your physical presence here. I wish i could just hug you, and forget about this cruel world that we live in.
Thanks for making me kind, compassionate, strong, understanding. A human basically. Thanks for encouraging me to take my own decisions, and for standing by it. Thanks for believing in me, and for making me believe in me.
Thanks for trusting me when the world doubted me, Thanks for having confidence in a girl that she can be better than boys, and thanks for raising me that way.
Thanks for giving me lessons to not judge people, and help people out when and where we can, thanks for making me understand the concept of giving happiness, and not just expecting it. In this world of pocket moneys, thanks for making me financially independent.
Thanks for being such a good person, thanks for letting me learn by seeing you actually do, and not just by saying. Thanks for loving me enough to set me free.
Thanks for setting the standard so high. Thanks for being an example of kindness, lessons, and an epitome of love.
4 years from an urdu calendar they say, and i still can’t believe it. 4 years!!!! Without you!!
People often complain i live in my own “world” these days. How can i show them that my imaginary world is so much better, with you. Around you.
Just dreaming of you, after a stressful day, relieves me, makes me smile, how can i tell people that you exist, and i am more happy there, with you, than here, with them?
You’ll forever be my King! My everything.

Forever, and ever,
Your “Princess”, as you called me.

-Aahilic Aish

Forgive/Forget??

This thought has troubled me, for long.

What’s easier, to forgive, or to forget?? 

To forgive is a trait of a really strong person, someone who is willing to choose themselves, and not you.It takes a lot of courage to forgive someone for what they did, and to ignore the fact that it has hurt you a li’l bit, and still welcome them into your world with warm hearts and open arms.

Still expecting them not to hurt you; but the truth is, every time they hurt you, you love them a li’l less, and then there is this threshold beyond which you can’t just give them any love, not even a wee bit. After all the forgiveness that you have served them with, the love finally vanishes in thin air, before you even know it. And you are left with nothing but emptiness towards them, you basically just feel nothing. Nothing at all.

Do we forget them, then?

Can we really forget someone we shared our smiles with, our cries, sorrows, and every part of our day eagerly?

The truth is, we never forget totally, we just forgive them to make it easier for us to move on, when it really pains to hold onto them, when you can’t take it anymore, when you are done punishing yourself for their mistakes, and finally you take hold of your life, or atleast when you try to.

They still linger in our subconscious mind, dwelling in with our dark chambers of discarded, waste thoughts.

It’s just the new memories that form, and the new people that we meet, who keeps them at bay, making them invisible during the day, but, as the night descends, sometimes nothing can stop them from flowing into our thoughts and bundling us up into a curl ball in our beds. We kind of kewp revisiting that stage.

As the time flies, it might feel easier, but it’s always the same, it’s just your threshold to bear the pain their memories give, that has improvised and adapted to the hurt they cause.

-Aahilic Aish

So, does it really matter, whether to forgive them, or forget them? what’s more important is, to learn the lessons, and move on with the basics of life, to start with. 🌟
-AahilicAish